A song

She woke up one morning
Her heart full of song
The day was bit cloudy
But still it sang a happy song

The birds chirped on her window
And she sang along
There was a thunder
And down came the rain

She ran out to embrace it
With her arms open wide
Rain saw and smiled at her
And kissed her smiling lips

The grass was never so green
She sat down on her knees
Her hands touching the grass
While rain kissed her neck

Her heart danced with joy
She never was so loved
She let her heart open
And took all the love

She woke up next morning
And found her rain gone
She looked out of her window
It was a new dawn

The birds sang on her window
She couldn't sing along
Her heart was all heavy
And it sang no song

Out she came and looked up
The sky was clear and blue
The grass was still green
With her rain's tiny dew

She touched
and tired to reach for her rain
but it all died down

The sun saw this
and sent her his warmth
She felt and looked above
He smiled at her with full love

He asked her to smile
And live her life
For she was not alone
Not anymore

On Depression and Dreams

I've read that, you dream what you desire the most (what your subconscious mind wants) or you dream of something which you've been thinking for a long long time. Or usually you dream of the same thing what you've been thinking all the while before you go off to sleep.. (one of the many possibilities)

And when you dream of what you so longed for, you kinda feel relaxed the next morning. Relaxed after a hell long time of being depressed.. At least that gives some freshness... Even if for few hours, it works wonders. And in those special hours, there will be no anxiety, no hopelessness feeling, no lifelessness feeling, no whatsoever negative feelings and are able to concentrate.. Priority will be reset to the ones which require the no.1 position in the list (which was pushed to no. last when depressed, without wanting that).. Everything seems really clear, and that crazy feeling of "Am I going mad?" A really great change!

Really, who wants to stay depressed?

Japan

Its such a pretty place. Calm and beautiful. It is in my wish list to visit. Will definitely give a try to work there. Its so so pretty!!

This is Japan, my brother's view. Awesome!

Story of a Bird

It was just the right day. The egg cracked and out came a li'l birdy. It saw a bright and sunny day. All it could experience was happiness. It was ready to grow into a bird.

The days passed by and it grew. It grew into a pretty one. It started seeing the world beyond being sunny and bright. He could understand more now. He started experiencing different emotions now. It was so new and disturbing that he started getting frustrated. It took time to get in control of the frustration. After all, one does adopt according to the changing situation.

But then, there's limit to everything. And his cup of limit was about to overflow, when he thought, "I'm a bird. Ain't I supposed to be free?" Birds do leave their nests eventually. He noticed his wings. He flapped it. And there, he flew away to find some meaning to his life. He also realized, something was eating him up mentally too. And that its high time he stop running after happiness. So, away he flew from all the strings and control, he was free. Free mentally and free as an individual.

Does it matter?

Something happens. Bad obviously. Will it matter? Yea, it wont matter if you think of it after next 10 years. But it will be of some importance say for the next two years or so, depending on the situation.. It might not matter after 10 years, but it might leave a scar. And no one likes scars.

If won't be of any importance after next 10 years, the situation should be left as it is? Or should try doing something? If not able to do something, its just not possible not to think "it does not matter". Cos it does matter at that moment. Just can't help feeling it. Its just so frustrating! Feeling helpless makes it even more worst! When something could have been done, my brain is busy being jammed.

Just don't understand, where the hell does it go when its required the most... Its just like, no one will be there for you when you want someone close to you the most..

Really does not matter, doesn't it?