Finally!

I should yell "Yipppe"! I finally started enjoying coding! Thanks to my research dean. (The best/worst part was, I was her object of interest today (mixture of both good and bad :D)). I never enjoyed lab this much. I was almost asked to "leave" the lab today :)

She teaches us. Not everything. Certain things are left for us to do on our own. We are not kids you see :) And that creates the interest and increases the hunger to know more. She leaves it in such a way that leaves me hungry to know more about it. And then code it to see it for myself. This has helped me to understand her subject well. She is a hell of a trainer! Sad that not all our lecturers are like her.

For the first time I enjoyed working on the subject, coding it and trying my best to make it work, even though that subject is not my line of interest. Its fun. Working in a team makes it much more fun. We understand even better. At least I did.

And it finally answered my question. And I realized, emotions are secondary! I was so engrossed today that there was no feeling of love or hate in my heart. (Man, I've come to hate the word heart!! ) Or any other shitty emotions but that of just getting the result. This is fun :D

And I'm enjoying drinking coffee!

I think I should rename my blog now.. ;)

Have I gone corrupt? Or finally on the right track?

P.S. : :
I re-read my post.. Maybe I shouldn't be so heartless. Maybe I should reserve the particular emotions for their own particular time. I shouldn't forget: I am a human. Whatever the chemicals in my head, I still feel it. It is that that makes me a unique me. And sometimes those emotions are really wonderful, with even more wonderful memories.

I guess they are important, but when required at their particular time. Till then it can be secondary. :)

Case solved :)

A walk in the rain :)

It was late. We had to hurry to the bus stop. It was drizzling lightly, slowly increasing its intensity. I said, "Lets hurry, I don't want to get wet!"

There was no point in hurrying cos I was in chappals (girly ones :D) and I was slowing us down (I am not used to walking in them). I was constantly slipping cos of the water. :) Initially it irritated me. Then I laughed. I was already half wet. My friend was half irritated. I laughed more. It was raining. And I remembered,"I always loved to walk in rain and get wet". I still loved it. And I slowed down bit more. (To add to her irritations :D )

I enjoyed the rain. I enjoyed it falling on my cheeks again. The bus wont run away. There was still some time. I saw a small puddle and I stamped hard. Splash! She gave out a laugh too. (My chappal had come out too :D) My black jeans was pale brown below.

Then hurrying to the bus (me) half falling. Getting in and getting a weird stare from my math lecturer (I saw her first when I got in :D). I guess I didn't seem that kinda girl to her :)

Hair wet, water dripping. Jeans half wet, shirt wet. Shivering a bit cos I felt the air was cold and the longing for my blanket. And I was smiling. The same air, and the same feeling of belonging. The same trees and the same atmosphere. It smelled the same too.. The same old feeling.. It rained and I had my walk. A long urge finally fulfilled. Would have loved to have a walk a few specific people though, enjoying sharing a perk or walking with our hands around each others shoulders or waist, would have made my day even more better. But still, I enjoyed. :)

Oh the good old days! I just love rains! Don't have the same people around me, but I had the air back. And I felt loved. :)

Laughter :)

Infectious :)

Tinkles my heart every time I hear it. Be it from the person I love the most to my darling niece, Jiya. The most beautiful of all is that of Jiya, when she laughs in her sleep. You cant help but smile. And some kind of tension is released. I forgot everything at that moment and felt so light. So wonderful.

Every morning she gets up (or anytime after her "short" nap) she looks around. If she sees you, she smiles. A BIG toothless smile. Anytime she sees you enter the room, she welcomes you with a smile. It is so real and so cute. Its like, she takes off your tension with that cute smile of hers!

She begins her day with a smile. A laughter if her granny is looking at her. :)

Something we've forgotten. I've I guess.

The memory I have when I laughed real hard is that, I felt real happy. I felt so light and so wonderful. Everything seemed so easy. I mean I could think clear, cos my head was clear. Everything was so simple.

I wonder, when was the last time I actually laughed like Jiyu... Its like some buried history. Need to dig it out, and say "EEEE" (SRK style in Kal ho na ho :) )

You, please "Smile" :)
Make your day!