Solitude

If its a mistake, I'll learn.
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The Unwillingness Reason

Mistook submission to letting go.
Submission to the situation.
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Your daydream

Wish I could paint your imaginations too. :)
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Common Sense Department

Interusted. 
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You and me

Sometime or the other there will always be "something in common" between us however hard we cry "nein!" ;)
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Unwillingness - Late goodbye?

When I stop trying for something which seemed the whole world to me because I got tired and because I just want to stop, and later realizing that the attachment has slowly begun to fade towards it, does this mean that I have let go of it?
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Momentary chaos

How easily a human falls for those so called emotions.
Stupidity and sucha waste of time.
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Opacity

Love the fact that no one can read my head by just looking at me when I'm talking to them.
The element of secrecy. Beautiful.
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Rubick's Cube

20 Feb, 2011
10:54 AM

Don't be scared to mess the perfection.
The fun is in chasing perfection. Apparently ;)
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Mangloor Lesson

February 20, 2011
10:29 AM

Real independence: Implementing the Eklavya story.
Wisdom is attained by applying knowledge. Stacking knowledge is not being wise.
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Anti Social Cry

February 19, 2011
10:26 pm

Will to be free is often denied. Always tied down saying its a mistake.
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Jane's Emotion

Weirdness: She cannot be with the one she is happy around.
She is all that bla bla
- Vivian
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One Mask Displayed

How a display of probable white lie can make people believe things. (Unless the stubborn ones see what they want to see.)
Gullible, gullible world...
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Midnight Thought - A very late realization

One day of  known comfortable change doesn't necessarily last for the next day. Or the next.
Worst is when that particular day stays in.
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Manglore Daydream

February 18, 2011

When one imagination (then consequent few imaginations) come true, there is this danger of expecting every imagination to come true.
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Bridal Shower

February 17, 2011
8:00 PM

One night at a bridal shower, she thought, "Life is too short to be shared with anyone."
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One Eye Test

February 17, 2011
7:06 PM

Most of the stuffs are psychological.
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Another Train Thought

Febuary 16, 2011

It is sorta weird how two people have different understanding and hence opinion about each other, which leads to  (sometimes) disastrous decisions.
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Like slow poison

When something which was real begins to feel unreal, the memories begin to dissolve. 
Dislike.
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My Wardrobe Monster

How can I want and not want one thing at the same time?
"Confused mind" is not a pretty thing to hear.
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Doubting truth

If there were complete truth there would be no peace. And thus white lies makes it less real and comfortable.
Makes it look like, every "true" relations are made up of some or probably many white lies.
What exactly is truth? and being free?

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One Rotten Apple

Been wondering, how one rotten thing can actually screw millions of other good things. How it actually can make us forget all those millions of good things. How suddenly it is just about the one rotten apple.
The same ego and pride vs other emotions dilemma. 
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Personality clashes

Everyone loves Jane.
But once Vivian emerges, Jane is forgotten. Nothing matters anymore.

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Realizations, adding another

The other realization: where there is the "Deja vu" situation, which makes a person walk out of it, once pattern is recognized.
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Basics

How hard is it to fight temptations?
And how easy is it to get completely involved and lose yourself in something that you enjoy doing
Either way, when I stand outside my emotions it looks like complete madness.
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Between those lines

How one line can be interpreted in different ways in different states of mind, when most of the times it has one simple interpretation whatever be the state of mind.
Usually it is all clear when pre-decided view is thrown away.
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Complicated relation

There is always some truth behind the lies.
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Change

When it is finally embraced with open arms, looking back becomes tough and letting go becomes easy.
Need for explanation decreases.
And then all of a sudden: the rise in standards. :)
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Wise ones

A kiddish realization:

Even they make mistakes now and then. So my theory of they are never wrong, failed.
And I also learnt: me making mistakes is not making me less wiser. And that it is okay to make silly ones too, now and then.
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He said..

All you had to do was ask or say that this is what you exactly want.
Don't wait.
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Nike says, Just Do It

Imagining is one thing, doing it when there is a chance is another.
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Conscience Call

An act out of "light" dislike, does give her the euphoric sadistic pleasure along with the sudden, (and gladly welcomed) hulky strength. Remorse doesn't follow, but sometime later the Conscience questions and fails.

- The strength of determination. Is despicable at times.
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In her face

Few hours later, sitting on a bench waiting for a bus after spending time together walking around in a mall passing time; conversing:
Jane: You shouldn't have told me that.
Dad: Learn. This is reality. Face it.
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She already knew :)

When asked for opinion, which sometimes leads to arguments rather than explanations, made her realize that there was no need to ask for an opinion, because the decision was already made. And she thought she is still in undecided state... :)
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JD Daydreams

Sometimes when you get what you want, you end up missing what you left behind.
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"Accidents"

"There are no accidents." Things are done knowingly.

Innocence is a tad bit elaborated when there is actually none. Especially after the real innocence shell is broken.

When she was almost caught on her "accidental" accident, she preferred to stay innocent. A little bit of sadistic pleasure and more on control. After all, there really are no accidents. ;)
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Doubt

Even when independent, why is there a subconscious need for approval? From someone who matters; obviously.
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Finally :)

A control freak is happier when things get back in control. Or at least seem to be in control. That is when she pulls things together and is in control. :)
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Some more whys

Why is standing up to ourselves so repulsive? Why is it so difficult to accept? Why does it become a matter of guts? If there is self respect, pride and some ego, why should it be difficult?

Why is it so difficult to tell people what exactly I feel/think about them? Is it because I'm scared I won't like what I'll hear? Or is it because I'm scared I'll probably be knowing myself lesser than them, or what I am ignorant about myself? Or is it because I want to maintain the friendship and not hurt the person? But what if it is needed to be told? Anyways, whenever it is told, it is never complete. Probably to stop from exceeding the limits.

Why is it so difficult to let go of things/people you really care about?

And finally, why so much of hatred? 
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The World

When I said I don't really care about the world, I guess I meant what it says about me. Probably because it doesn't care what I say either. When I literally look at the world, what all is going on, it all looks shattered. As if everything is wrong in this world. Nature, thinking, philosophy, power, everything gone wrong. And it is so frustrating, because directly, indirectly it does have some effect on me.Nothing seems right.

But then there are some steps, which seems like a step towards something better. A step to stand up to their rights and stand up for themselves. That is a small reassurance.
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Identity

If she has forgotten who she is/was or not being herself, if she really has, then I'm guessing it never really was her.
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Deciding Worth

Sometimes all of it, is really not worth it, even when it sort of defines you or the existence.
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The great pursuit

I heard: when you are unhappy, you just take a step back to where you were happy.
What if you cannot, what then? At present this question to me is like asking, "What happens to me after I am dead?"

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Fraud Jane

Had she really wanted it, she would have pursued it. Letting go is probably giving up; knowing it is not easy. Unless she found something better: an alternative.

She really seems to be a LOT on my mind :)
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