Slow Down..

What future holds, who knows?
What present is like, I know.
Why think about the future?
When the present is me.
I want this and that for future
Pushing myself for the best
Slow down, breathe and look around
It’s a pleasant, cloudy afternoon
It’s beautiful.
Slow down, taste it.
Kya pata kal ho na ho :D

"I"

No one cares about "I" but "I". Whats happened has happened. And what is past, is past. What can I do about it NOW? (Answer...) So why crib? Or even THINK about it? (Certain things do need to be thought about though :))

Once I understood this, everything was easy.

Now I am most of the time: "Just do it". Once done, done. Can't be changed right? :)

There is this whole new person out of me once I accepted all that. Like: Throw half sarcastic cum innocent statement to a lecturer, half smile when explaining a topic to the whole class and the dean interrupts me and says "you didnt understand it completely" when I had not paid attention to her classes at all! , duck in front of the whole class when the dean is searching for me, question a sir if he "did" teach that topic or not when writing a surprise quiz (and get "tortured" that day and the next in front of whole class again :D and laugh more about it). Get screwed for forgetting ID in front of whole class and still laugh about on whatever she called me. Its fun! Its simply fun being like this. Done being "serious".

The best part was, I could see the bright part of the whole thing, make fun of it and laugh with every one. What will it matter later?? I choose my time being happy than sit and cry over it. There is no reason for me to be sad at all when there is so much more to do and feel!

I am able to share thoughts with everyone, not just few. What the hell am I gonna do by keeping it to myself? Why not share and explore. (Some yea, are best kept personal :))

Want to buy it? Just buy it! (me being a BIG kanjoos :D)
Want to do it? Just do it!
Want to question? Raise your hand and just ask!
Who the hell cares what others think? I am being me.

Half of them are anyways sleeping or dreaming! In short: No one cares! So why do you care?

I had forgotten all this.

With all this, I'm actually very happy. Whats do I get by crying? Hell nothing (but some exhaustion and sleepiness and waste of time!)! Why not be happy then? :)

Taking life as it comes, with my baby steps to things I want or as I want it to be.

I, Love...

Today: 11 September, 2009
Thursday
12:10 AM

I want to be in love not a relationship. Love is free, like a spirit. When in love why want to give it a name when you can just enjoy being in love and enjoy each other’s company, be there for each other, support each other, talk everything out to each other and just love each other. Everything is simple and understood between us. We’ll be in present and take future as it comes (Though sometimes we will love to plan for it : ) ). Nothing else matters. It is pure, beautiful and free. To hell with the world.

I enjoy being in love. That love need not be for that ‘special’ person. I enjoy loving things I love. (I realized that better today.) I love FAFL classes and Networks as a subject. I love logics and maths in theory. I love computers and I love my branch. I love to work when I am working on something I am passionate about. I love my passion and my will to do it. I love my determination. I love my strength. I love me.

I love my best buds. I love every morning and I love looking at the stars. I love to get lost in the things I love doing. I love my life and I love the chances and the probabilities. I love to learn.

I love my blanket and I love my soft toys. I love the little things around me. I love to observe and I love rains. I love philosophy. I love psychology.

I love to love. I love to smile. I love to laugh and I love being happy. I love being alive and so love it being in love! I love being me. I just love me! Muah!! : )

I’m so happy!

Today's quote here:You cannot love a thing without wanting to fight for it.
Gilbert Chesterton (1874-1936)

Reality

This world is really so small, and so is our lifetime. You never know what will happen when.

Imagine this (supposition): it was just last week I spoke to her, my best friend. Had a fight and didn’t speak. Today I get the news she’s that she’s no more. I feel shocked and numb. The fight seems unbelievably small. The only thought that would have been in my mind was if only I would have spoken to her and made it all right. If only I could talk to her one more time. In the end, all that matters is your relationship, not the fight.

It took me long to realize this. All that matters is, I finally did. :)

Whatever happens, only thing that hits back later is memories. And surprisingly only the good ones do. The times we laughed, we made fun of each other, we pulled each other’s leg, the overnight stay, the time we called up late night and spoke for hours, saying out loud, "I love you and miss u" if we missed each other... Even in these times, memories haunt back and make us smile.

It really makes me wonder now, does it really matter? Nothing lasts yes. The fights, the blah blah, or any damned relationship. What lasts is only friendship. So does it really matter?

What’s best is, put aside the ego in time (sometimes it does take very long time :)) and smile. Talk again as if nothing ever happened. All that matters is we are best friends. Love stays. To hell with everything else and make some more memories. Else only memories remain...

What’s the best out of the two?


Ps: It really happened with a friend of mine, which was another slap back to reality. Made me enjoy and value whatever I have around me more. People come and go, but once gone, they never come back.