Being Silly

This big world is such a small world. Like a circle.
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Reminiscing

School days were the best. Talking about it reminded so much about what and who I was.
Relationship almost killed that in me by making me forget who I was.
Never late to revive. :)
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All this on the officially last free day of my college life.
I will miss this day.

Fair possibility

Couldn't help wondering, if I was wrong. If I am missing something. Even if I am, I don't feel anything.
But this that it could have ended in a better way.
No entiendo. And probably I don't want to.
Mature part: I'm not taking it for granted. I just know it's there.
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Last Night's Conversation

It is so easy not to care.
Pretense or not, go figure. :)
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I'm still imagining

12:26 AM
Life with no secrets.
Obviously when there is absolute certainty.
And no whimsical made up reasons for escapade.
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Part of growing up

Apparently you can do nothing when you are scared and want to make it go away.
But wait for it to pass.
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Can't stop fantasizing

If I were a detective by now...
I would be chasing bad asses.
And then someday, I would die a heroic death. Shot by a terrorist during gunning session.
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My 12-15 yr old fantasy.
Which I couldn't stop fantasizing now either. Suddenly remembered how I used to make ID card: "Agent Shenoy. FBI. New York"  and run around the house, imagining holding two revolvers. Cowboy style. The fascination and obsession with NY city. (Which is still alive)
My navy blue diary on "Crime Investigation." :)

Bangalore is Back!

Something comforting about "back to normal".  Like it always was.
What everyone craves for.
Made me feel good.
Rains and it's famous pleasant weather.
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Changes have their own perks.

Baadam Burfi

While making that I learnt:
There is a BIG difference between what is right and what seems right.
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Another theory

Never try to say "this is it", in any way.
It is a full stop. Stagnancy.
And kills everything beautiful.
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Why I don't care

I am one heartless biatch! :D
This is not PMS speaking.
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By the way, PMS you are a bitch too.

The Phatichar English

From a letter to Di:
My love for Math: (Exam date: 27/9/99 Yea I had the thing of mentioning it back then too)
"My maths paper was hard also and easy"
ting ting tiding :D :D
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Alive!!

Love the thrill of racing against deadline!
Aware, alive and a much wanted challenge.
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Complete true lies

18 April, 2011
6:41 PM
Lies keep the world steady in denied delusions. Truth disrupts it bringing in some self relieved peace at the cost of hatred. Probably intense.
Still the truth will be made of some more lies.
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Get it out of my head

Pizza with not enough cheese is no pizza.
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5:30 PM
New addition: mushrooms too. 

Because I said so

This is papa.

 Even he can't ask why :D
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White or Gray?

April 14, 2011
11:27 PM

Why ask for an opinion when you already know what you want?
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Internal Bleeding

April 14, 2011
11:14 PM
Everybody secretly craves for drama, which leads to gaining the much craved attention. 
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Persistent

Some things are. Doesn’t mean you conclude already just because you saw it more clearly, rather discovered about it now.
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Pretense of Strength

It is so easy to pull a person down.
They will put up a strong/poker face and pretend it didn't matter to them.
And still deny it.
The power of denial.
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Return of Music

When I daydream with music

Rusty finger when I start.
Someday, that long hair.
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Another muse

Autosuggestion.
Not The Exorcist effect. Pakka. (though it did start there)
It was the Combiflam effect.
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Dark Night

April 11, 2011
2:25 AM
Moon light streaming through the window past mid night, her silhouette made her feel perfect.
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That Instance of Insanity

April 9, 2011

9:45 PM

Let it settle, you’ll see that silence is the best retort. :)

Peace. V

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Thankful that Genies are not real

April 9, 2011

8:27 PM

Imagine if every wish out of insane emotions was asked and he said, “Your wish is my command”, guess what would have happened??

Total Chaos! Imagine how.

I know I had wished for him. Once upon a time though. :)

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Fantasies

April 9, 2011

8:20 PM

Imagine if wands were really magical! Just imagine. Include dragons too.

Imagine if mind reading was possible. It would make things simpler. Imagine how much of explanations it would have cut down.

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Think once before you ask “Why”

April 9, 2011

2:20 AM

Every why has a simple answer. It gets complicated when it’s not accepted.

Not all whys need explanation.

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Analyze This

April 9, 2011

2: 32 AM

What’s the point being brilliant when you can’t analyze yourself?

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Almost Perfect

Best feeling in the world: Getting one of many important things you want. And still being confident, and wanting it after getting it.
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My Snow Globe

 

Most of the time we forget what we have when it is right in front of us, taken little care of, lying there in dust. So much of dust that the interest dies away, rather we forget about it and lose it. 

The real one:

If I apply this in real life: by the time I remove the dust and find it, it will be too late. 

Need to stop being this blind.

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Record:  Which was already in dust

This always makes me smile

Everything about it is perfect.
Mummy's smile, papa's half smile. Can't get over on how beautiful she is. So beautiful. And dad is his handsomest in his IIT-K ID. Which he, I'm guessing hid it from me when Iwas in school, when I had taken it.

Me giving my then typical smile, wanting to hold Blackey and holding his chain. Because I was too small to be allowed to hold him on my own. Love Blackey's expression too :)) Miss that lallu
Me wearing naani's necklace.  She taught me some hell of manners. Miss her.
And my sister, her half wanting not wanting to smile. She almost in her teenage.

And this always reminds me of my energy. The kind I had. Always jumping and laughing. Happy with myself. I still have that energy. The problem is, it's partial with people. :)

Love this family picture. Couldn't stop looking at it today. Always at my bedside.
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When everything seems wrong with the world...

Beginning to wonder if being simple is being naive and stupid.
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Record: Chain in B2

Sleepy daydream

Imagining my chaddar is my invisibility blanket. :)

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Paris of my Dream

The kind of day I'll like: Sunny, warm and bright. Very pleasant day. I could see yellow light scattered. (Yes, I dream in color).  On a brown carriage which had convertible car sort of look, pulled by a white horse on a beautiful early morning in Paris. Beautiful. Passed by some river like water body. More than that, I could only remember the pale blue sky and the soft yellow light bouncing off my hair, bouncing off the water. Nice and warm weather.

I was away. Far far away from everyone. I enjoyed my independence and more than that my solitude. And that beautiful city of my imagination...

I missed watching Eiffel. :D

Watched it weeks back and I still cannot get the image out of my mind.
Beautiful and peaceful.

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Baby's gone paranoid!

When your patience begins to get weary over what you think you want the most and you are not even almost close to it, baby, you begin to have paranoid imaginations as a result of frustration.
Think something else!

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Lets go head on like MSD

I photograph only whatever appeals or intrigues me. And its difficult to impress me.
How do I force myself to get attracted to an object? It is a task.
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Probably an "old" new muse

The never ending thirst of immortality. That's what its all about
Almost mixed forever with immortality.
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Record: India-Lanka WC Final-2011. Awesome match.
Sachin steals MSD's thunder. He 'seems' not to mind it.
And I love his composure.

This Beautiful morning

I woke up to the smell of gilli mitti. :))

When it rains... :D
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This is what happens when

1. You are so hung up on one thing - Miss out the "slow-rapid" changes in yourself because you didn't listen to yourself either. (At times "you" were reeeeeeally cute :D)
2. Daydream openly - Get friendly hits thrice on your back and get startled badly. And then listen to them laugh at your multiple expressions running on your face.
3. You have your space - You are completely with yourself to discover you. Beautiful beautiful freedom! :))

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Jane, Learn!

"The first step is acceptance.
The most difficult one."
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