Drum rolls....
Tada!!!
happy happyy 2009!!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Midnight Adventure..
Everyone knows drinking and driving is dangerous. But boys are boys. They love to play with their lives. They want to be in that "cool" thing... Drinking is cool, smoking is cool... even if they know that its a slow poison to death...
So much for the adventure that one ended up loosing his life and the other is battling for his own. One couldn't beat death, and the other is still having a race with death...
Both were in my class.
What is done is done, and what has happened cannot be changed. Its a lesson for all those who drink and drive... I hope they learn this time. I hope they do pay some attention to their friends who out of concern slap them asking them not to drink and drive. Please ppl pay them some heed.
Life is only for once. Its a choice we make in between living and killing ourselves. Decide now and decide for once and for all. This is my message for all my class friends and everyone else who drink and drive, and smoke.
May Harsha's soul rest in peace. And I pray to god for Nitin's speedy recovery. We are all with you.
So much for the adventure that one ended up loosing his life and the other is battling for his own. One couldn't beat death, and the other is still having a race with death...
Both were in my class.
What is done is done, and what has happened cannot be changed. Its a lesson for all those who drink and drive... I hope they learn this time. I hope they do pay some attention to their friends who out of concern slap them asking them not to drink and drive. Please ppl pay them some heed.
Life is only for once. Its a choice we make in between living and killing ourselves. Decide now and decide for once and for all. This is my message for all my class friends and everyone else who drink and drive, and smoke.
May Harsha's soul rest in peace. And I pray to god for Nitin's speedy recovery. We are all with you.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tashan...
The fire to do it, burns bright. I'm in search of it. Its known what is to be done, but is still unknown. It could just be felt. A big urge to go do it. A big urge to break it and win over it. But what is it? Its still unknown.
Do what I want to is the Number 1 on my list. Not to sacrifice it for the sake for something else is the goal. Motive is to achieve complete happiness. Go and just do it. Do every small things that gives me enormous pleasure. No one's stopping. If someone is, I'll just change my path, and still go get it.
This is my "Tashan". To go and just do it. Win my small world over and make everything possible. Be it a big change or small, I'll make the impact felt. The ripples created will shake everything around me. And it sure will be noticed. Noticed by me for sure. For I care for no one else. I live for me. I am dependent on no one but me. I'm a role model for me to improve. The unknown me (model) that is..
But the problem is that the urge to do that something "unknown" is so strong that it ends up frustrating me. So much that I have to refrain myself from breaking a glass or swallow a scream to let the frustration ease out... It is refrained..
The only fire at present is to just go for it... And it burns bright, refusing to douse.
Till then its still being explored, to keep the fire alive..
Do what I want to is the Number 1 on my list. Not to sacrifice it for the sake for something else is the goal. Motive is to achieve complete happiness. Go and just do it. Do every small things that gives me enormous pleasure. No one's stopping. If someone is, I'll just change my path, and still go get it.
This is my "Tashan". To go and just do it. Win my small world over and make everything possible. Be it a big change or small, I'll make the impact felt. The ripples created will shake everything around me. And it sure will be noticed. Noticed by me for sure. For I care for no one else. I live for me. I am dependent on no one but me. I'm a role model for me to improve. The unknown me (model) that is..
But the problem is that the urge to do that something "unknown" is so strong that it ends up frustrating me. So much that I have to refrain myself from breaking a glass or swallow a scream to let the frustration ease out... It is refrained..
The only fire at present is to just go for it... And it burns bright, refusing to douse.
Till then its still being explored, to keep the fire alive..
Limits of "Whatever"! (sequel)
Har har har... Look who's talking!! Talking about feelings... Ditching someone so unceremoniously... Where was the big talk about feelings then? I don't think age 18 is a young age... A pretty mature age enough to understand how you should treat a person. Talking about hurting... Hurting someone so much that the person is still ignorant that he had hurt her so much. So much ignorant that, that person thinks everything will be ok. Yea it will be. Someday or the other it will. But its etched in her heart. What about that?
Is it wrong from my end to feel mad for hurting my friend? I'm not after his piece of ass, but I'm after his peace of mind, cos he spoiled her piece of mind! And had the nerve to spoil mine too! He has some ego, so does she. He should have respected that.
He has his friends to support him, to back him. Doesn't she? What am I to her then? A support. I am not scared to that kinda mild "whatever". I've people to back me too. I'm not alone either.
I've my sword: My words, my writing.
Anyways, a good attempt to try to change. But a mark left is left. Its like a mark left on the stone. Its impossible to erase it, but can be easily shaped into something else. But the mark still remains. I hope this time the change taking place is for real. If the change is real, the stone will be modified in something beautiful. The mark will be hidden.
An apology from heart is what is required. A baby step to start changing things for real, is by not repeating what was done... Love is an emotion to be enjoyed, to be felt. Heart is something beautiful, not to be broken but respected. Ditto for feelings. I respect them.
Once all this is done, I'll bring forth my hand for friendship, trying my best to forget. The peace shall be restored. (I shall try my best :) ) But the fire from my end was to be understood, not misunderstood.
Amen.
Is it wrong from my end to feel mad for hurting my friend? I'm not after his piece of ass, but I'm after his peace of mind, cos he spoiled her piece of mind! And had the nerve to spoil mine too! He has some ego, so does she. He should have respected that.
He has his friends to support him, to back him. Doesn't she? What am I to her then? A support. I am not scared to that kinda mild "whatever". I've people to back me too. I'm not alone either.
I've my sword: My words, my writing.
Anyways, a good attempt to try to change. But a mark left is left. Its like a mark left on the stone. Its impossible to erase it, but can be easily shaped into something else. But the mark still remains. I hope this time the change taking place is for real. If the change is real, the stone will be modified in something beautiful. The mark will be hidden.
An apology from heart is what is required. A baby step to start changing things for real, is by not repeating what was done... Love is an emotion to be enjoyed, to be felt. Heart is something beautiful, not to be broken but respected. Ditto for feelings. I respect them.
Once all this is done, I'll bring forth my hand for friendship, trying my best to forget. The peace shall be restored. (I shall try my best :) ) But the fire from my end was to be understood, not misunderstood.
Amen.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Lets See...
LD externals tomorrow... Feeling so so sleepy that I thought I'll note some things to drive the sleep away... So Lets see... (There's no particular "Number 1" in my list though.. ;) )
- Marry a chef of a famous 5 stared hotel!! (If he's qualified in something else, will be great too!! If Akshay Kumar kinda body and face then awesome!!)
- Own a sleek black coloured luxury car, the one whose top can be opened...
- Get into some crime branch, using my whatever learned CS skills
- Try and be like Susan Fletcher (Digital Fortress : A great decoder!!)
- Get married on a beach, wearing a lovely flowing white gown
- Try wearing heels and walk in them, and wear typical girl jewelries
- Try being in salwar for one whole week ;)
- Learn to cook great food without referring the cook book (but if 1. is satisfied, why bother?)
- Stand on a busy highway when the weather is all cloudy and just be able to stare at the road.
- Enjoy a walk in the rain
- Jump in the poodles on the road (aftermath effect of the rains)
- Own a latest bose system, and gift one to papa too.
- Learn to drive a car, and go for a loong drive, first all alone on an empty highway (early morns), then with parents... on a sexy cloudy weather again..
- Learn how to grow nails and shape them.
- Learn salsa
- Learn how to play a guitar, violin and a piano. And play Sajni on guitar after I learn how to play it.
- Meet Mr. A P J Kalam! Somehow! Anyhow!
- Sleep in the garden of my own house, staring at the starts with my "woh" :D
- Walk on beach everyday... (doggie ya fir "woh" bhi chalega)
- Own a garden of roses
- Have one Labrador, black colored.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Limits of "whatever!"
I was going through this guy's blog.. He writes and writes. A good attempt. I say "attempt" cos he is not natural in that blog. He's not writing for himself. In brief "Show Off" is what I can say about it. Its maybe a biased view. But that's what I felt.
He beeping respects girls he says! My foot he does! He's the biggest beeping lier! My best friend has been his beeping victim of his ditching business...
As I said, must be a biased view, cos of what he did to my friend, and how he treats her... I should shut up and sit. I couldn't help vomit this out! Feels better now!! :) (Its best to take it out of my system rather than keeping it in, when exams are around the corner!!)
He beeping respects girls he says! My foot he does! He's the biggest beeping lier! My best friend has been his beeping victim of his ditching business...
As I said, must be a biased view, cos of what he did to my friend, and how he treats her... I should shut up and sit. I couldn't help vomit this out! Feels better now!! :) (Its best to take it out of my system rather than keeping it in, when exams are around the corner!!)
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Crazy Moments
I was just lying down, eyes closed, trying to catch some sleep when suddenly some images started flooding my mind. It was as if a movie reel was being projected on the retina of my eyes. I could see the pages of my diary, a face with that huge smile, a hug before the exam, some sweet talks, a crazy painting, I could remember some moments like those.. those crazy moments...
I couldn't help but think how those crazy moments were the most important thing then at one point or phase of my life, how it meant everything to me... Days go by, things start changing. People change, I change, environment changes. Even tomorrow is a new day, even that changes, waiting for no one. And suddenly that thing of importance becomes something of smaller importance. Something which would be fine even if it is missed. Drastic change.
I'm talking about those big events I noted in my diary: happy, sad, disturbing... all emotions. That one place, some friends, who became my life for that moment, that nothing else mattered.. Those crazy moments.
I cant even regret those moments, cos those moments were something I wanted then, something which meant the world to me. It was a part of me evolving then.
It makes me wonder should I take some moment that seriously as I took then, cos anyways after some phase of time, it will be some distant memory. Like that some problem which was a burden then, wasted so many tears on it.. That moment seems like that now, cos I can see how small it was. Its maybe I'm far stronger than then me. Or maybe I faced it so many times that I've become immune to it. This is the best thing about humans, they adopt to changes, challenges, name anything.. faster than any being on earth. They adopt and become even more stronger.
Or maybe the best solution I agree to at present is what people have said over and again: (in my words)
Enjoy every light moment, laugh heartily when you feel the tickle. Live in that moment and treasure it. And in those dark times.. Be patient, it will pass.. Best is to be clear minded then and not think negatively. Instead of running away from it, turn around and face the storm. Fight back and not hide. You'll be bruised and battered emotionally, but in the end, you will become even more stronger than what you were yesterday. you will become more immune to the darkness and have the capacity to enjoy the light ones even more..
One drop of that crazy moment changes the whole perspective.. After every evolution that is..
That's life...
A sweet mystery.
I couldn't help but think how those crazy moments were the most important thing then at one point or phase of my life, how it meant everything to me... Days go by, things start changing. People change, I change, environment changes. Even tomorrow is a new day, even that changes, waiting for no one. And suddenly that thing of importance becomes something of smaller importance. Something which would be fine even if it is missed. Drastic change.
I'm talking about those big events I noted in my diary: happy, sad, disturbing... all emotions. That one place, some friends, who became my life for that moment, that nothing else mattered.. Those crazy moments.
I cant even regret those moments, cos those moments were something I wanted then, something which meant the world to me. It was a part of me evolving then.
It makes me wonder should I take some moment that seriously as I took then, cos anyways after some phase of time, it will be some distant memory. Like that some problem which was a burden then, wasted so many tears on it.. That moment seems like that now, cos I can see how small it was. Its maybe I'm far stronger than then me. Or maybe I faced it so many times that I've become immune to it. This is the best thing about humans, they adopt to changes, challenges, name anything.. faster than any being on earth. They adopt and become even more stronger.
Or maybe the best solution I agree to at present is what people have said over and again: (in my words)
Enjoy every light moment, laugh heartily when you feel the tickle. Live in that moment and treasure it. And in those dark times.. Be patient, it will pass.. Best is to be clear minded then and not think negatively. Instead of running away from it, turn around and face the storm. Fight back and not hide. You'll be bruised and battered emotionally, but in the end, you will become even more stronger than what you were yesterday. you will become more immune to the darkness and have the capacity to enjoy the light ones even more..
One drop of that crazy moment changes the whole perspective.. After every evolution that is..
That's life...
A sweet mystery.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Pointless...
What am I blogging?? There was a time when I had so many things to talk about. Now nothing. Not even one philosophical thought! All I type is some whatever!!!
Hello??? Where are you??
Hello??? Where are you??
Friday, December 5, 2008
*Sigh*
Do I see something from this window of my world?? Yea I do...
I see a clear blue sky with those white clouds splashed here and there... I lower my gaze, I see the wind blowing softly through the leaves of the trees. I see them dancing in pleasure. I bring my face forward towards that invisible hand and feel it run its hand through my damp hair. That is refreshing!
I hear some noise... I look up again and guess what I see? I see group of white migratory birds flying in V shape. Perfect V. Brings a smile on my face...
Where am I? I'm in a park, sitting on a bench. My favorite spot there, my bench surrounded by trees and few wild flowers fallen around the bench. My place. And I'm there, in the comfort. Gazing lovingly at those trees... Then I hear a playful yelping. When I see down I cant help smiling. Its so cute. Its brown with those dark brown flappy ears and big black liquidy eyes... Its standing in front of me wagging its tail, I cant resist and I get up and move towards it. It moves behind, I call it near me... Its cautious and scared... But so so cute!! I move back to my bench. I cross my legs and put my face in my cupped hands and watch it go play with other puppies... There's a lost smile on my face...
Slowly the sky become light grey, and a colder and stronger breeze starts blowing... I feel chilly. I pull my sweater closer to me. Everything around me looks so beautiful. I start getting lost in her. She has created such a beauty in front of me, how can I resist it?
I feel those tiny drops of the drizzle fall on my cheeks and hear the music of the trees. I look up smiling to myself and enjoy the light rain... It comes and goes.. a tickling rain making me giggle like a kid laughing in pleasure, touching me but still letting me be dry...
Everything is just so perfect when I feel a hand touch mine, trying to bring me back to the present priority, asking me stop getting distracted. I look up to that person. I look around the ignored part around me on my bench: My math book and my scattered sheets on the grass with those tiny drops of rain on them. I sigh and get up, picking up my scattered sheets, to waste another beautiful day in solving some stupid sums, preparing for my another stupid exams...
I look up to her again and then I force myself to look down in my sheets again, and start solving another problem...
Life...
*siiiiiiigggh!*
I see a clear blue sky with those white clouds splashed here and there... I lower my gaze, I see the wind blowing softly through the leaves of the trees. I see them dancing in pleasure. I bring my face forward towards that invisible hand and feel it run its hand through my damp hair. That is refreshing!
I hear some noise... I look up again and guess what I see? I see group of white migratory birds flying in V shape. Perfect V. Brings a smile on my face...
Where am I? I'm in a park, sitting on a bench. My favorite spot there, my bench surrounded by trees and few wild flowers fallen around the bench. My place. And I'm there, in the comfort. Gazing lovingly at those trees... Then I hear a playful yelping. When I see down I cant help smiling. Its so cute. Its brown with those dark brown flappy ears and big black liquidy eyes... Its standing in front of me wagging its tail, I cant resist and I get up and move towards it. It moves behind, I call it near me... Its cautious and scared... But so so cute!! I move back to my bench. I cross my legs and put my face in my cupped hands and watch it go play with other puppies... There's a lost smile on my face...
Slowly the sky become light grey, and a colder and stronger breeze starts blowing... I feel chilly. I pull my sweater closer to me. Everything around me looks so beautiful. I start getting lost in her. She has created such a beauty in front of me, how can I resist it?
I feel those tiny drops of the drizzle fall on my cheeks and hear the music of the trees. I look up smiling to myself and enjoy the light rain... It comes and goes.. a tickling rain making me giggle like a kid laughing in pleasure, touching me but still letting me be dry...
Everything is just so perfect when I feel a hand touch mine, trying to bring me back to the present priority, asking me stop getting distracted. I look up to that person. I look around the ignored part around me on my bench: My math book and my scattered sheets on the grass with those tiny drops of rain on them. I sigh and get up, picking up my scattered sheets, to waste another beautiful day in solving some stupid sums, preparing for my another stupid exams...
I look up to her again and then I force myself to look down in my sheets again, and start solving another problem...
Life...
*siiiiiiigggh!*
Shutup and Bounce..
Sounds similar to that song.. but then Mr. Brain, you really do need to shut ur crap and bounce (not meaning that bounce). Force that second thoughts out of my system and just do it. There's a brand new day coming up tomorrow and a beautiful life to live. There's so much to do and so little time. Do you realize that?
I believe in you and in your power. You can beat anyone. Anyone you want to. All you have to do is shut your crap and bounce.. Its not that tough is it? It takes time but then you cant take the whole of my life to get over your issues! Its precious...
You show me those dreams. Why do I have to keep running in the dark in them? Why am I scared of something unknown? You have brought down my standards! I'm scared of unknown in my dreams, cos of you! Why made me so weak? What was I and what am I now? I cant answer those questions when a friend asks me "where did you leave yourself? Whats the difference between Blore and Pune?"
Its nothing with the place but the atmosphere. All an illusion. Created by you dude. Dont take my life from me!
Enough of cribbing and sniffing.A full stop to it.
Its high time you shut all your crap and bounce! Starting from now.
I believe in you and in your power. You can beat anyone. Anyone you want to. All you have to do is shut your crap and bounce.. Its not that tough is it? It takes time but then you cant take the whole of my life to get over your issues! Its precious...
You show me those dreams. Why do I have to keep running in the dark in them? Why am I scared of something unknown? You have brought down my standards! I'm scared of unknown in my dreams, cos of you! Why made me so weak? What was I and what am I now? I cant answer those questions when a friend asks me "where did you leave yourself? Whats the difference between Blore and Pune?"
Its nothing with the place but the atmosphere. All an illusion. Created by you dude. Dont take my life from me!
Enough of cribbing and sniffing.A full stop to it.
Its high time you shut all your crap and bounce! Starting from now.
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