Unbounded

Don't bind me with your chains
Of clingy emotions and expectations,
I'm born free, not knowing you
I belong to me and only me
I listen to no orders, no advice
I give no one rights on me
I like to learn on my own and be free
I'm not dependent, I'm free
I expect nothing
I like to walk carefree
I am free to be just me.
There are no definitions, no boundaries
A simple unbounded me.
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To You...

 My heart sings it, it wants say: I'm  yours, and yours till today. Today is present, and my present is you. Whatever happens, I want to be with you. To hold your hand, and walk on beach. A silent company, sky turning orange. Look in my eyes, it says it all. I love you now, I'm all yours.

Leaning on a tree in the park, casual day and we dream together. Together we build, a plan, our life. As distant as the dream it seems, a will kept alive by the passion to gain. I have you, what more do I need? You are my pillar. My strength. My angel. With you my love, there is nothing I can't win.

A touch of support. eyes full of patience as I try. Fail I might at times, but you are there with that smile as I am for you. That's all I want.

A kiss in the rain, a slow dance. Sleeping on the grass, watching the stars; running my fingers in your thick black hair. A smile on my lips, you watch  me sleep. When the morning rays shine on the dew, the sparke will make me think of you. Hugging me tight, feeling your breath on my neck, Makinng my heart sing like tinkling bells..

Tinkling with joy when I hear your laughter, tickling you more till you surrender. A kiss on your nose, to wish you good day.

Frown on your lips makes my heart melt. A kiss on your lips to make it all well. A hot mug of coca shared sitting in a blanket, watching it rain with a smile on our lips. They are the raindrops of happiness and love for you and me.

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Snap

A moonlit night with shining stars

A light even when there is dark

A cool breeze singing a lullaby

Pulling the blanket close to her heart

Feeling the presence of the known

That’s how much she misses her heart

Listening to the long lost voice, soothing fear

Putting a smile on her lips as she hears

A long seen dream, now seems shattered

There’s hope in her heart, not yet broken

She wanted to hold on, while some asked her to let go

I wish she listen to her heart and fight even if alone

It’s a decision she has to make, and she alone

Is it worth fighting or not she has to choose

To unblock and embrace the new beginning

Or to stay back and fight, try and let her dream live

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Late Realization

Palm full of sparkling water

Holding it but never appreciating it once

Looked at it and turned away

Even when the love was profound

The water wasted drop by drop

The loss recognized late

Looking at the empty palm

Realizing now its worth

Dipping the palm in a river

The water still slips away

Hoping the rain will refill again

Singing songs almost in vain

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Acid

Thought of a fireplace made you walk

Draught and rain didn’t make you stop

The dream of fire was wild and red

All that welcomed was blue and dead

“Raining it is” was said when there is draught

Broken hand pumps, cracks in the soil

Scorching sun burned your cracked lips

Die if you must said she, it’s a choice if you wish

Dry wind rocked the swings by and by

A loner walked with a stranger beside

Encouraging smile while walking she gave him

It was acid not any gin

Agitated bottle of some drink

You waited for the fizz to die in

Tightened the lid, and watched around

The fizz never seemed to die down

A word of caution given, paid no heed

Tried to be a friend when in need

Befriending you when you come to me

But I’m acidic; don’t dream of creed

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A Mistaken Identity

The calm and closed face is all you see

There is a smile invisible to thee

Retreating in shell when unknowns around

Thee thought its arrogance profound

Dark brown eyes speaking a song

Subtle smile playing along

It was a step taken towards thee

But the lips were thought to be mocking at thee

Smile I’ll never was the opinion of me

Feel I’ll never was thought of me

Speak what you want was what you said

Hurt and she?  Will that be even felt?

Days passed by, ignored all along

The mind was set and even more strong

Little was cared about everyone and thee

You took the liberty of thinking its attitude in me

Reasons they were, a judgment passed

Intrigued by character, thee said why not?

In the virtual world, it started with a “hi”

A mistaken identity it was, you realized

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I was Wandering

Wrote this in a competition in BMSCE fest "Utsav", April 2 2010. In collaboration with Vibha. Didn't win. :(

(Introduction: War every where. We fight, we kill. In the end what do we get? Is that piece of land worth loosing lives? When there can be harmony and peace. This is about a girl, who lost her home in a war. In search of her identity she is wandering. In search of answers she is wandering. The answer eludes her..)

V: I was wandering, on the crossroads I stand

Wondering to myself which is my land

Who was the one’s I can call on my own…

In whose arms I was borne?

V: I see no difference between there and here

The eyes all over have the same fear

Why is there pain, why the tears?

Why are all looking for their dears?

V: Little was I when I was taken,

I know for sure I was never forsaken,

My mother’s eyes had all the options read,

I was either going or left there dead

A: Mother’s love, so intense and divine

The option was known, clear like a chime

Clutching to her heart, she took me and fled

Life was my gift, before she left

A: What’s in a name, what’s in a color?

What do we fight for, what do we achieve?

I lost my life, lost my home

I’m a wanderer, in search of my home

A: Questions I ask, answers unknown

Wanting to belong, feel a sense of home

Walking around, in search of clue

All I see is broken and gloom

V: Not knowing where to go

Unsure of my roots am to sow

I walk alone clutching on my mother’s ring

I’ve been, still I am...

I am wandering…

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I am "fine"

The whole world was upright when you were there.

With you beside me, for nothing else I cared.

Now with you gone, its upside down again.

I see you walk away, taking a part of me away 

It’ll stay with you for me; I refuse to take it back.

I refuse because I have to be strong.

It may have been long lost, for you killed that part in you.

Emotions buried alive, suffocated to death

It tried to breathe, but you refused to touch

You had lost the will, said you wanted it to die

I could do nothing, but listen with a tear in my eye

Gathering all the strength, I still tried to fight

How could I fight anymore, when you refused to see?

No tolerance, no will, no love left to breathe

Everything dead and heartless, no tears left to weep

This is how was, when failure kissed my lips

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Yearning

My heart yearns for something

Though it is not you

It is a forgone image

That keeps giving me a cue.

The days come and go

The memories remain buried

Helping someone out of distress

Digging those memories as a paradigm

Unsure is the reason

Why the heart is so sore

Attend to it or ignore it

About this I am not sure.

Diversion is a ploy

To quieten the quivering

Tortured by the blank spaces

The lost mind is facing.

Questioning the intelligence

But everyone is so sure

Why is so difficult then

To understand one simple line?

Lost so much are you with the blanks

That the priorities are lost

Is this how 'you' plan

To shape your future in void?

A Silent Goodbye

Life is a choice; to breathe or not to breathe,

What has the sun to do with it?

The source to use is lying right there,

What has the “right” time to do with it?

You live a call to a block away,

I call, asking you to be there.

Will you be able to save me, while I think of my worth?

I’ll kid about it and you’ll never know me.

Hand reaches towards it,

No spare time to regret.

Once action taken, deed is done

I’ve already erred to even think to go back.

Waiting for the time to pass, I call you up

Talking random; I tell you how much I love.

Those will be my last words before I go,

And that will be all of my silent goodbye.

You and Me

This poem I wrote in collaboration with Vibha.

V: Hold on my dear, not so fast
You'll forever be my part not my past.
Sit down for a minute and listen to me
Look into my eyes, tell me what do you see

A:My heart sings for you, why can't you hear?
I've said I love you, but you don't care.
You promised to walk along, now you walk away
I tried to hold on, but you shrugged me away.
Was this all that was to be of you and me?

V:Do you see lies, you thought there were?
Do I look like a murderer with a snare?
My face is sinister, a witch you said.
Even to the gallows you had me led.

A:My heart was yours, I had already said.
I'm all yours, you had already said.
Still you dragged me all the way
I was a witch, no more your angel you said
I cried and called out your name, but all in vain.
You were far gone, and I was slain.

Only Love is Real...

Silent walk in a sunny field
Things unsaid
But love was real

Time flew by
Love was known
Some things were
Still unknown

Years passed by
Love still strong
They walked on
Hand in hand

Piled up were
Unsaid things
And they thought
Only love is real

Little did they know
The time was up
Everything was breaking up
How strong love was
They had to see
Unsaid was still locked with no key

To break the lock
Or let it go
In the end one just
Let it go

On tired hard
Other backed off
Their love was lost in a trunk
Reasons given to kill it
One cried hard
Other shrugged

Days passed by
And they met
Decision was regretted
But it was way too late
And one realized

Only love is real.

Slow Down..

What future holds, who knows?
What present is like, I know.
Why think about the future?
When the present is me.
I want this and that for future
Pushing myself for the best
Slow down, breathe and look around
It’s a pleasant, cloudy afternoon
It’s beautiful.
Slow down, taste it.
Kya pata kal ho na ho :D

Raining

Today: 26 August, 2009
Wednesday

Soothing breeze, graying clouds
Coconut trees, swung side by side
Dry green grass, wet again
It is raining

A silent walk, kid shrieking inside
Muddy road, avoiding puddles
Slippers are wet, mud stuck on it
It is raining

Beside a window, in a bus
Looking out, rain running down the widow
Condensed, frosted window
It is raining

Zooming cars, splashing water
Head rests on the glass, enjoying the air
A little drop lands, kissing my nose
It is raining

A man dressed in white, big turban on his head
Kids jumping, splashing water in air
A flower in the corner, dew on its petals
It is raining

Sun peeked out, from its veil of clouds
Rosy sky, with the air of romance
Woman hugging her guy, ride on the bike
It is raining

Bangalore is beautiful :)

11 Minutes

A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to loose;
A time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time of war, and a time of peace.

I've no idea why, but this poem is there in my head since so long. It kept resounding in my head today. A few particular lines of it.This poem had touched me. It was a favorite.Still is.
Its in the novel 11 minutes by Paulo Coelho.

A song

She woke up one morning
Her heart full of song
The day was bit cloudy
But still it sang a happy song

The birds chirped on her window
And she sang along
There was a thunder
And down came the rain

She ran out to embrace it
With her arms open wide
Rain saw and smiled at her
And kissed her smiling lips

The grass was never so green
She sat down on her knees
Her hands touching the grass
While rain kissed her neck

Her heart danced with joy
She never was so loved
She let her heart open
And took all the love

She woke up next morning
And found her rain gone
She looked out of her window
It was a new dawn

The birds sang on her window
She couldn't sing along
Her heart was all heavy
And it sang no song

Out she came and looked up
The sky was clear and blue
The grass was still green
With her rain's tiny dew

She touched
and tired to reach for her rain
but it all died down

The sun saw this
and sent her his warmth
She felt and looked above
He smiled at her with full love

He asked her to smile
And live her life
For she was not alone
Not anymore

byronian heroes (Title wasnt given to me )

Of rosy air and childish chime
Life was a pleasant dream
Between the threads of me and life
You were the seam

But in my grave heart there now gargle
The heavy air with tears and battling noise
You don't remain with me nor does exist
Of my love, the poise.

Nor does remain the chanting nights
Nor do remain the pleasant fights
Remain they now only in the grave
Where they at niht become satanic toys!

Let Earth Remain A Beautiful Planet

Deep Oceans, High Mountains
Thorny Shrubs, Rising fountains
All are atracted by its catchy net
Let Earth remain a beautiful Planet

Salty Seas, Greenish Trees
Mango, Papaya, oh! where would you find all these
Yet all are found till this date
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Ozone Gas, Doesn't let pass
UV rays, which harm us many ways
What doesn't let go this all into man's gullet!
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Green forests and beautiful wildlife
Are now changing into an extinct life
We are today alive because of this great planet
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Plastic bags, lead full petrol
Where manis going, leaving his role!
Oh! Stop all this, leave this finet!
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Yes, we have improved, I agree with pleasure
But smoke and pollution are out of measure
To pass this vote, I don't need a ballot
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Following our ancestors' lives and lines
I also support this view of mine
Oh friends! Please help me with your good sign
To participate with me and make earth fine.

Man oh! Man, listen to her call
Listen to it and don't act like a stubborn wall!
Please help protect this beautiful planet
Let earth remain a beautiful planet

Just a little wastage, you would not mind,
But this is destruction, will major place find
On this today, I would like you to tell
To wake up man , please ring the bell

When he is awaken, give him little pain!
And then read out to him, his bad deeds in chain
Ask him whether he would like to change
Or else nature shall on him, take its revenge

Man only can make reforms,
Change this world of losing charms
One of them is Mr, Rajshekhar Vyas
Thus he is doing a work of class

When peaceful work shall come into existence
And trees will sing the song of assitance
Then we all can say proudly that
Earth has become a beautiful planet

Physics and Life...

Weird combo I'm gonna put into...
What the hell, who cares???
Here it goes...

Law of conservation: Energy can neither be created nor destroyed.
True.
Nothing will be destroyed completely, it will be still there in some form. Burn a wood, you get ash. How do u destroy it??
There comes a wind, woooooooosh.. and there goes the ash... spreads wherever the wind takes it. Its still there somewhere in some end of this big earth, never destroyed.

If applied in daily life, stands true. Not in physics sense of course! I was sweeping the floor for Amma (what else to do?? vacation!) and suddenly this thought came in... It does not stand exactly with that law, but then some similarity...

The thought: (ahem ahem)

I found a place, met a friend.
Broke the ice, and joined the hearts.
Got so close, everything was shared.
Found great happiness, in little things there.

Then came a time, to take a decision.
Time to leave, decision was taken.
Heart was broken, but everything was numb.
Everything was prepared, and all was done.

Found another place, and met many friends.
Broke the ice, but hearts failed to join.
Many were there, but still there were none.
Lost the happiness, in every little things.

Then came a void, and nothing could fill.
Almost gave up, until I met thee.
Heart was healed, feelings regained.
Everything was regained, when nothing was lost.

Ahhh.. It just came out... :)

What I meant to say was, I missed something, and the void was created cos of that. I thought it was destroyed... But realized natures beauty today: Nothing can be destroyed. It still stays in one form or the other. Just like that wood burnt into ash. It has everything prepared, to replace the void. But it sends, when the time is proper. It is timed... So seems for everything else too, to me at least.

It wont exactly replace. Nothing can replace anything. Everything has a special place, in our hearts. Its that big I know. But then, some solace comes in one form or the other. That is replaced. Everything has to heal in time, and then move on with the life.


Thats life. And its really beautiful.
A beautiful poem ever written.

Longing

The night was cold
The breeze was soft
The crickets cried
While babies laughed

She lay on her bed
With thoughts a lot
Her body was cold
But tears were warm

A message to a friend
A call not answered
She was left alone
Craving for a human touch

Blanket kept her warm
But still she shivered
She was there for all
But who's there for her?

That night she slept
With a teddy clutched to her heart
That night she was
The loneliest of all.

The night went down
The sun came up
The morning was warm
So was her laugh

In that laugh
Was embedded her sorrow
For to be felt
And known to her alone



This was one of my scariest nightmares! It almost made me wanna pee (I got up in time! ;) )
The nightmare in the form of a poem..