Reminiscing

School days were the best. Talking about it reminded so much about what and who I was.
Relationship almost killed that in me by making me forget who I was.
Never late to revive. :)
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All this on the officially last free day of my college life.
I will miss this day.

Part of growing up

Apparently you can do nothing when you are scared and want to make it go away.
But wait for it to pass.
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Internal Bleeding

April 14, 2011
11:14 PM
Everybody secretly craves for drama, which leads to gaining the much craved attention. 
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Persistent

Some things are. Doesn’t mean you conclude already just because you saw it more clearly, rather discovered about it now.
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That Instance of Insanity

April 9, 2011

9:45 PM

Let it settle, you’ll see that silence is the best retort. :)

Peace. V

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When everything seems wrong with the world...

Beginning to wonder if being simple is being naive and stupid.
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Record: Chain in B2

A Sleepy Thought

Some lies are actually the truth: Just not correcting it when the other takes it as a lie.
A form of pretense I guess.
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Epiphany

A strain between two people often does wonders to another relation for one of the person involved.
Also, not everyone can be without talking to anyone for long.
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Where is the other door?

When there is so much of self induced darkness, how can she see the light?
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Sherlock's Willpower

I wish I had that. Control all those unwanted overwhelming emotions and ignore them.
Distractions are harmful. Both waste my time.
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The Unwillingness Reason

Mistook submission to letting go.
Submission to the situation.
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Unwillingness - Late goodbye?

When I stop trying for something which seemed the whole world to me because I got tired and because I just want to stop, and later realizing that the attachment has slowly begun to fade towards it, does this mean that I have let go of it?
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Midnight Thought - A very late realization

One day of  known comfortable change doesn't necessarily last for the next day. Or the next.
Worst is when that particular day stays in.
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The World

When I said I don't really care about the world, I guess I meant what it says about me. Probably because it doesn't care what I say either. When I literally look at the world, what all is going on, it all looks shattered. As if everything is wrong in this world. Nature, thinking, philosophy, power, everything gone wrong. And it is so frustrating, because directly, indirectly it does have some effect on me.Nothing seems right.

But then there are some steps, which seems like a step towards something better. A step to stand up to their rights and stand up for themselves. That is a small reassurance.
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Right or wrong

Cannot seem to figure out what is right or wrong. Or how to understand and decide what is. What seems right now, may not work for long run. Or what seems right now, might be out of stupid emotions.
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Why?

If it doesn't matter to you, and not that important for you, why is it still bothering you?
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Rambles

Do not understand the reason of pretense over anything, say: not wanting some things. Yelling it out loud and making yourself believe by making others believe that this is not what you want, but secretly wanting it. This probably happens when you misunderstand the rules of signs. I don't understand them anyways, so I supposedly assume them. Assumptions are wrong because of over analyzing, then get disappointed, become a cynic and then all that pretense.

Not sure about the new directions, because it means change. And that means moving out of comfort zone. For that need to let go.

Sometimes wish innocence is never lost, once it is lost probably all the simplicity is gone. But if it is never lost, there will be no understanding. And the mistakes will probably keep on repeating. I've no idea what I'm blabbering anyways.

Wish for a retrograde amnesia of about 5 years of my life. And if I get a chance, redo it again in a different way.
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And it gets stupider

How do I know what I really want when I'm made believe that that is not what I want? It is that image that is making me want that, the most common parrot answer. Surprises me. They supposedly know what I want, more than  me.And I wonder if they know what they want..

Be it for better or for worst,  I will still want to take the plunge.
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Intuitions

Damn those intuitions! Especially when they actually come true. And when they are right, it sometimes freaks me out. Not every time feel bloated by that. Beginning to believe that they are subtle form of desperate wishes.

Some of those intuitions are so strong that, it is difficult to comprehend if it really is an intuition or a "desperate" wish. At that time, no matter what it is, there is this complete confidence that it IS going to happen. Doubts do creep in now and then when it is a long term feelings. Obviously

Anyways, dammit too!
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Pretenses

Thought it is tiring, and it is. But the worst part is believing you are not  pretending, being totally confident about it and then again realizing many hours later that, it was a pretense again. Dammit!
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