Almost there :)

Daddy offered to buy her a glass of red wine. Is that a sign that he sees her as (almost) completely independent lady now? :)
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Jane in Distress

When she gets what she wants, will she want what she gets?

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Right or wrong

Cannot seem to figure out what is right or wrong. Or how to understand and decide what is. What seems right now, may not work for long run. Or what seems right now, might be out of stupid emotions.
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Green

The most difficult thing to handle (even more than rejection) is jealousy. Unpredictable mood change and the types. Cold type is scary.
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Randomness

Surprised that how I thought I don't know a person at all. When talking to someone else, I realized, I subconsciously know everything about that person. If not all the likes; the behavior, character, the whole person, yes.
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Realisations

Some realizations stop you in your tracks. Others take you in new directions. And it is a funny thing to see yourself in that new light. A new beginning.
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Greed

How can some be satisfied with half of what they get from their want and be perfectly happy? Why is it so difficult to accept, and still want almost everything of whatever was/is the want? This pursuit, is it called as being greedy?

Refusing to settle for less. Refusing to let go.
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Wishes

There are so many wishes around me, including mine. Wish to be with this guy you love, wish to stick to the plan. In short, wish to get what everyone wants. And then something comes along and those wishes take a back seat. Some do. And the strength of it being pushed back is known with the force it is said out loud.

Some remain distant. Half already a memory, which will probably remain locked in a box. The want will still be there, which will probably be forgotten slowly with time. After all, cannot have both the choices at the same time.

Some day will get it though :)
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Why?

If it doesn't matter to you, and not that important for you, why is it still bothering you?
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Clarity

"A mind that is burdened with hope is already biased and cannot see with clarity of perception of actually what is."

I got my clarity without actually pointing out the trouble.

I mixed hope and faith. Then came a small ding of understanding that, 'Faith in imaginary is blinding and hope in imaginary kills.' And 'hope tends to corrupt the mind against reality.'

All begins with a desperation to make things right again. Hoping to be given a second chance to do it all over again but in a different way by picking the other choice. And probably that is what is required, to understand that the present choice is better probably because there is attachment to it because of the energy embedded in it. Everything else becomes secondary. Probably.

If there is nothing you can do to make it all right now, don't hope for a second chance. It might probably go down the same lane as now some time later. What was done was done with some weighted thinking, whichever party responsible. What ifs will remain as it is. Accept the reality and let go.

Easier said than done.

"Imaginary" is desperation. Hope becomes expectations. A failure to acknowledge truth because of self deception. But when it is accepted (with courage) it sets you free. Pursuing freedom doesn't.

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