They are irritating. The shit all around in my mother's beautiful balcony garden. And there is lot of pigeon wings around too. They gutar goo-ed when I needed it to be quiet and peaceful and that would irk me even more! :)
One fine day, in the corner of the wall, in a beautiful plant pot, mom found an tiny egg. It was beautifully placed. It was like the pigeon had first sat on it, made a beautiful space among the leaves (It was like there is a hole in between and the leaves are diverging from below) and then laid her egg. :)
She choose a beautiful spot too. Beside that plant pot, there were bloomed button red roses. In front, a bi-coloured hibiscus kali. And diagonally bunch of purple periwinkle flowers. If you see it in pigeon's point of view (:D), she had chosen a beautiful mini garden in front of her "home".
There is no more irritation now. I smile looking at it. Everything is happening simultaneously at the right time.
I am waiting to see the egg hatch now and see her tillu baby.
The most beautiful thing in this world: a birth.
Showing posts with label Environment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Environment. Show all posts
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Bangalore
I never thought I'll be writing on this some day!
Every day I got up cursing her, and today I noticed her, and god, she is beautiful. Every time I traveled, there would be some music filling my ears, and my eyes would be shut, or looking down at the road. Few weeks back, I looked up.Today I actually saw her, and this time music was some background sound, and I got attached to her. She is awesome.
I learnt a lot here. I cursed, but still I learnt.
I came out of an illusion. Illusion called love. I must have forced myself to believe in it. And later I "thought" I felt it. She reminded me, and asked me, "What was it that you always believed in?"
I listened to someone, and went ahead. It had to fail. And for the first time I'm happy it failed! I'm free of my pact.
When in love, I was changed. My ideas where almost forced to change. I was "made" to believe in things I didn't. By made I was not forced, but made believe that those ideas ARE right. I forgot mine.
And then now I asked, "What was it that I always believed in?"
I know things will work fine now. I know what I really want. I know my challenges, and I know my goals.
Its not that I learnt nothing out of it. I learnt how to be ruthless. Its needed if I have to survive.
She made me see how far I can go to get what I really want. I just have to see how far I can push myself to get it. :) She made me really see how ambitious I can be. And I was myself surprised. I no more see a big "?" anymore.
Though I hated some of her "children". They would be interested in others lives than their own. It was irritating. I suffered cos of that. But then I saw, few select "typical" ones were like that. I met the best of people here too. And those who didn't even know me, were ready to help me. This is best here. People do help.
I wold get irritated initially when I wouldn't understand when her people would speak in Kannada. I would ask them to speak in English/Hindi. They would just smile and continue in Kannada. Now I know why. That is to make me learn. And some of them really help me out with it. If not speak, I can understand bits of it. :) That's the way some people indirectly try to help.
Her curly scripts I can't read all. I read it slow. But still I love trying to read it, and then read the English version below and smile when I'm correct. She makes me want to learn her script sometimes.
Then comes to calling it the garden city. I talked ruff about this part. It was cos I never saw up. Today I saw it and I fell in love with some areas. Say for example R T Nagar. I've come to love the colour green cos of her. Its lovely to see a tree on the side of the road, and some yellow flowers fallen around it. Looks gorgeous!
Only flaw is, its too polluted! Gives me a running nose! And another biggest flaw is smokers! There is no place where you wont find smokers! I can make an exception: Lalbagh! Its beautiful there!
The weather is so so awesome here that it makes her look even more beautiful and fresh. Especially after it has rained, and when it is still cloudy. Though the sunny sun burns my skin as if there is think ozone layer here!
I live in north Bangalore. I can go all the way down to south Bangalore alone. Myself. She made me confident. She has awesome bus service! :D I love her for that! (Though I'm still uncomfortable waiting in a crowded place :( )
She has made me love my own company again. I'm comfortable with myself now. I joined my college because I loved the peaceful air there, especially in the park. I can now go there and sit by my myself with a book in my favorite spot there. Its one particular bench, surrounded by trees. And some birds chirping with some soft breeze. And some monkeys jumping sometimes on the trees :D
I was unable to walk alone with the sound. I had to listen to music when I walk. Yesterday I could walk without any music. I walked with the sound of rain splattering on my umbrella.
I enjoy walking looking at the sky and her trees. Its lovely.
I'm falling so much in love with her, that I guess I'm getting attached to her. I might find it difficult to leave. Maybe I wont leave. :) She has taught me so much, and helped me build so much.
She's not so bad after all! All I had to do was, give her a chance. :)
Every day I got up cursing her, and today I noticed her, and god, she is beautiful. Every time I traveled, there would be some music filling my ears, and my eyes would be shut, or looking down at the road. Few weeks back, I looked up.Today I actually saw her, and this time music was some background sound, and I got attached to her. She is awesome.
I learnt a lot here. I cursed, but still I learnt.
I came out of an illusion. Illusion called love. I must have forced myself to believe in it. And later I "thought" I felt it. She reminded me, and asked me, "What was it that you always believed in?"
I listened to someone, and went ahead. It had to fail. And for the first time I'm happy it failed! I'm free of my pact.
When in love, I was changed. My ideas where almost forced to change. I was "made" to believe in things I didn't. By made I was not forced, but made believe that those ideas ARE right. I forgot mine.
And then now I asked, "What was it that I always believed in?"
I know things will work fine now. I know what I really want. I know my challenges, and I know my goals.
Its not that I learnt nothing out of it. I learnt how to be ruthless. Its needed if I have to survive.
She made me see how far I can go to get what I really want. I just have to see how far I can push myself to get it. :) She made me really see how ambitious I can be. And I was myself surprised. I no more see a big "?" anymore.
Though I hated some of her "children". They would be interested in others lives than their own. It was irritating. I suffered cos of that. But then I saw, few select "typical" ones were like that. I met the best of people here too. And those who didn't even know me, were ready to help me. This is best here. People do help.
I wold get irritated initially when I wouldn't understand when her people would speak in Kannada. I would ask them to speak in English/Hindi. They would just smile and continue in Kannada. Now I know why. That is to make me learn. And some of them really help me out with it. If not speak, I can understand bits of it. :) That's the way some people indirectly try to help.
Her curly scripts I can't read all. I read it slow. But still I love trying to read it, and then read the English version below and smile when I'm correct. She makes me want to learn her script sometimes.
Then comes to calling it the garden city. I talked ruff about this part. It was cos I never saw up. Today I saw it and I fell in love with some areas. Say for example R T Nagar. I've come to love the colour green cos of her. Its lovely to see a tree on the side of the road, and some yellow flowers fallen around it. Looks gorgeous!
Only flaw is, its too polluted! Gives me a running nose! And another biggest flaw is smokers! There is no place where you wont find smokers! I can make an exception: Lalbagh! Its beautiful there!
The weather is so so awesome here that it makes her look even more beautiful and fresh. Especially after it has rained, and when it is still cloudy. Though the sunny sun burns my skin as if there is think ozone layer here!
I live in north Bangalore. I can go all the way down to south Bangalore alone. Myself. She made me confident. She has awesome bus service! :D I love her for that! (Though I'm still uncomfortable waiting in a crowded place :( )
She has made me love my own company again. I'm comfortable with myself now. I joined my college because I loved the peaceful air there, especially in the park. I can now go there and sit by my myself with a book in my favorite spot there. Its one particular bench, surrounded by trees. And some birds chirping with some soft breeze. And some monkeys jumping sometimes on the trees :D
I was unable to walk alone with the sound. I had to listen to music when I walk. Yesterday I could walk without any music. I walked with the sound of rain splattering on my umbrella.
I enjoy walking looking at the sky and her trees. Its lovely.
I'm falling so much in love with her, that I guess I'm getting attached to her. I might find it difficult to leave. Maybe I wont leave. :) She has taught me so much, and helped me build so much.
She's not so bad after all! All I had to do was, give her a chance. :)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Friday, December 5, 2008
*Sigh*
Do I see something from this window of my world?? Yea I do...
I see a clear blue sky with those white clouds splashed here and there... I lower my gaze, I see the wind blowing softly through the leaves of the trees. I see them dancing in pleasure. I bring my face forward towards that invisible hand and feel it run its hand through my damp hair. That is refreshing!
I hear some noise... I look up again and guess what I see? I see group of white migratory birds flying in V shape. Perfect V. Brings a smile on my face...
Where am I? I'm in a park, sitting on a bench. My favorite spot there, my bench surrounded by trees and few wild flowers fallen around the bench. My place. And I'm there, in the comfort. Gazing lovingly at those trees... Then I hear a playful yelping. When I see down I cant help smiling. Its so cute. Its brown with those dark brown flappy ears and big black liquidy eyes... Its standing in front of me wagging its tail, I cant resist and I get up and move towards it. It moves behind, I call it near me... Its cautious and scared... But so so cute!! I move back to my bench. I cross my legs and put my face in my cupped hands and watch it go play with other puppies... There's a lost smile on my face...
Slowly the sky become light grey, and a colder and stronger breeze starts blowing... I feel chilly. I pull my sweater closer to me. Everything around me looks so beautiful. I start getting lost in her. She has created such a beauty in front of me, how can I resist it?
I feel those tiny drops of the drizzle fall on my cheeks and hear the music of the trees. I look up smiling to myself and enjoy the light rain... It comes and goes.. a tickling rain making me giggle like a kid laughing in pleasure, touching me but still letting me be dry...
Everything is just so perfect when I feel a hand touch mine, trying to bring me back to the present priority, asking me stop getting distracted. I look up to that person. I look around the ignored part around me on my bench: My math book and my scattered sheets on the grass with those tiny drops of rain on them. I sigh and get up, picking up my scattered sheets, to waste another beautiful day in solving some stupid sums, preparing for my another stupid exams...
I look up to her again and then I force myself to look down in my sheets again, and start solving another problem...
Life...
*siiiiiiigggh!*
I see a clear blue sky with those white clouds splashed here and there... I lower my gaze, I see the wind blowing softly through the leaves of the trees. I see them dancing in pleasure. I bring my face forward towards that invisible hand and feel it run its hand through my damp hair. That is refreshing!
I hear some noise... I look up again and guess what I see? I see group of white migratory birds flying in V shape. Perfect V. Brings a smile on my face...
Where am I? I'm in a park, sitting on a bench. My favorite spot there, my bench surrounded by trees and few wild flowers fallen around the bench. My place. And I'm there, in the comfort. Gazing lovingly at those trees... Then I hear a playful yelping. When I see down I cant help smiling. Its so cute. Its brown with those dark brown flappy ears and big black liquidy eyes... Its standing in front of me wagging its tail, I cant resist and I get up and move towards it. It moves behind, I call it near me... Its cautious and scared... But so so cute!! I move back to my bench. I cross my legs and put my face in my cupped hands and watch it go play with other puppies... There's a lost smile on my face...
Slowly the sky become light grey, and a colder and stronger breeze starts blowing... I feel chilly. I pull my sweater closer to me. Everything around me looks so beautiful. I start getting lost in her. She has created such a beauty in front of me, how can I resist it?
I feel those tiny drops of the drizzle fall on my cheeks and hear the music of the trees. I look up smiling to myself and enjoy the light rain... It comes and goes.. a tickling rain making me giggle like a kid laughing in pleasure, touching me but still letting me be dry...
Everything is just so perfect when I feel a hand touch mine, trying to bring me back to the present priority, asking me stop getting distracted. I look up to that person. I look around the ignored part around me on my bench: My math book and my scattered sheets on the grass with those tiny drops of rain on them. I sigh and get up, picking up my scattered sheets, to waste another beautiful day in solving some stupid sums, preparing for my another stupid exams...
I look up to her again and then I force myself to look down in my sheets again, and start solving another problem...
Life...
*siiiiiiigggh!*
Friday, October 3, 2008
A pull
Sitting in the canteen by the window, we saw the weather change from sunny weather into a beautiful pleasant weather. The clouds started graying slowly, and the breeze became stronger. We decided to shift our asses in the basketball court. The ultimate place in my college to enjoy such weather and that breeze...
I was quiet bubbly... but the weather was so so so so seductive.. I just got pulled to it... I became so quiet. So so quiet, that one of my friend asked me "why so quiet suddenly?"
I had no answer to it, cos I was surprised with myself. The weather was amazing... (And that baby tantrums of mine to have dahi puri suddenly! But cudnt have it cos I had only 4 Rs.. Short of 6 Rs for a dahi puri)
Then it started drizzling... Usually it makes me very very happy.... but mid sem fears, dont wanna get sick! And that resulting in my "mummie" give me some mummie talk and call me a bigger mummie. :)
Then came the walk towards the bus stop... Passing that lane itself made me so happy! My college never looked so sexier! All green and lovely.. And the flowers just looked amazing! Nature pulls me towards her like no one else!
Then came the bus ride... I was still quiet. I wanted to sit alone, by the window... The breeze was lovely! I mean I just enjoyed it. And then suddenly when the bus is moving towards my home, I smile. No reason. But a smile. There was no thought in my mind. It was all clear and calm. And along with that was that smile.
Bangalore never looked so beautiful. I am a Banglorian now. :)
At last.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
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