Home

Just when I thought its over, my life had just begun. I was surprised with myself. Very much surprised. There is still so much to do, and so much to see. I still have to decide where I'm gonna be.

I never understood that happiness, that why my hostel-lite friends used to get so excitedly happy when they were to go home. I never understood their anxiety. Then I realized, I won't understand anything until I don't experience it. And I did. And its wonderful.

Its like I had forgotten myself. I had forgotten how to dance, how to smile and how to laugh. I was so lost in this world that I completely forgot my real self. I had given myself up to things, people. I forgot to see myself. And then it happened.

I flew back home. I placed my first step there and everything came flooding back. Everything seemed so simple again. I couldn't help smiling at people. Strangers they were, and they smiled back. I learnt how to smile again. A real smile. :)

Driving back home I saw trees and I felt peace. It feels nice when you get to feel the same old air.. I felt fresh after so long!

Life is so beautiful. Ironically I felt it when I was about to give up! I'm falling in love all over again. I'm falling in love with my life. I'm feeling so light hearted. I have to thank MJ. Man he took so much pains (and hell it costed him a lot) to make me understand all this! Thanks dude :) I couldn't have done it without you.

All he said was, "Try you fool! Didn't you understand what I was saying? Keep trying you chicken meat! Never give up!" I was too drowned in depression to "really" understand what I was doing to myself.

But then I also learnt, sometimes its best to give up on somethings, so that I can move on with my life. So that I can save my energies and put is somewhere I ought to put it. I have so little time and so much to do.

All I needed was a break. Now I understand why my friends get so happy when they say "home". Its cos you go back to a place where you feel at peace. You get that feeling of belonging.

Its like that dialogue in Kung fu Panda, "You cant think when your mind is agitated, once calm you can see solution to anything" (I don't remember the exact words :D)

I've big plans. I just hope I don't leave it halfway and jump to something else (MJ are u listening?? Keep bothering me then pls ;) )

Sigh!! I'm in love again. He's there right around the corner.

I never knew, I am so special.