I was just lying down, eyes closed, trying to catch some sleep when suddenly some images started flooding my mind. It was as if a movie reel was being projected on the retina of my eyes. I could see the pages of my diary, a face with that huge smile, a hug before the exam, some sweet talks, a crazy painting, I could remember some moments like those.. those crazy moments...
I couldn't help but think how those crazy moments were the most important thing then at one point or phase of my life, how it meant everything to me... Days go by, things start changing. People change, I change, environment changes. Even tomorrow is a new day, even that changes, waiting for no one. And suddenly that thing of importance becomes something of smaller importance. Something which would be fine even if it is missed. Drastic change.
I'm talking about those big events I noted in my diary: happy, sad, disturbing... all emotions. That one place, some friends, who became my life for that moment, that nothing else mattered.. Those crazy moments.
I cant even regret those moments, cos those moments were something I wanted then, something which meant the world to me. It was a part of me evolving then.
It makes me wonder should I take some moment that seriously as I took then, cos anyways after some phase of time, it will be some distant memory. Like that some problem which was a burden then, wasted so many tears on it.. That moment seems like that now, cos I can see how small it was. Its maybe I'm far stronger than then me. Or maybe I faced it so many times that I've become immune to it. This is the best thing about humans, they adopt to changes, challenges, name anything.. faster than any being on earth. They adopt and become even more stronger.
Or maybe the best solution I agree to at present is what people have said over and again: (in my words)
Enjoy every light moment, laugh heartily when you feel the tickle. Live in that moment and treasure it. And in those dark times.. Be patient, it will pass.. Best is to be clear minded then and not think negatively. Instead of running away from it, turn around and face the storm. Fight back and not hide. You'll be bruised and battered emotionally, but in the end, you will become even more stronger than what you were yesterday. you will become more immune to the darkness and have the capacity to enjoy the light ones even more..
One drop of that crazy moment changes the whole perspective.. After every evolution that is..
That's life...
A sweet mystery.
1 comment:
I understand those crazy moments well. Once when I was in hyd, I was feeling depressed and I was telling about it to some friend on the phone I guess. In 5 minutes or so it began to rain and all of a sudden my mood changed and my depression was gone. The person on the other side must have thought that I was a freak.
These crazy moments, I guess, happen to those, who do not try to force themselves into any artificial rhythm. And I think, good or bad, whatever happens, we shouldn't let anything be unnatural. Spontaneity has its joys multiplied :).
So as you said, live every moments by being in it. If you think about what you should do about that moment while being inside it, you are wasting valuable time. Let that be decided by the future version of you. That version's stronger and more equipped :) .
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