Crowd

Done being a cynic, sarcastic, stubborn, and what not. Want to put a full stop to it. Call it giving up or running away, I won't care. You not caring, is making me not care. Probably.

I dreamt I had run away taking dad's (MY) car, to some unknown place. There was this urge to get lost in a crowd. Get out of the car and walk on the road. Crowd because I suddenly wanted to feel small and unnoticed. Meaning: No questioning, no attachment, no expectation, that way complete freedom. A new place, new people.

Talk to strangers. Talk stuffs to them and listen to them talk back without knowing my background in anything. That way, I feel answers will not be biased, you know said just to make me feel fine types. I tried that once, when plugged to the wall. And I got some answers. I felt better. And there was no necessity to talk to them again later, or so I felt. 

I don't understand why is it that I feel this. If its want to run away from truth, or people or what. Its just that at times  more than known people, crowd feels more comforting. And this is coming from someone who totally hates crowd. 
I'm definitely weird :)


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