Complexity

Define complex.

What makes a person simple or complex? Person who doesn’t question, and just enjoys is simple?

A person who questions to find answer is complex? The one who tries to understand the meaning of life and who refuses to plainly exist just for the sake, is that person complex? Who believes in purpose, reason and meaning is complex? Someone who believes in a philosophy, and holds on to it because maybe it is giving her relief at that moment, however insane it sounds to other is complex? Be it any kind of philosophy. There is understanding, some closeness to an answer, a feeling of discovery and then euphoria... the amazing feeling of euphoria. This is much more than happiness isn’t it? Wanting euphoria is complex?

The joy of competing, a push to extremes to win; which makes her life exciting. Accepting a challenge, which makes her feel alive, a feeling of “she’s on fire”. Alive with passion to do it, for the pure love of it. It can be any subject. Anything at all.

Refusing to acknowledge guilt, sacrifice as heroic sentiments. Not an act to be different. There is no need to be. Refusing it because she has learnt to place “I” first. Not ashamed in believing “I am almost perfect”. “Almost” because, there has to be a room for changes. Call her proud. She won’t mind. Ask her to fly low, she will refuse. You contradict her with arguments, she has stronger ones. Why should she fly low? She is not afraid of heights. Why do you have a problem in her believing she is perfect? If you have a problem, why are you wasting your time on her?  Stop wasting your time, stop giving smart remarks, it won’t affect her. She doesn’t need you to respect her. She doesn’t need your approval. She is proud of who she is. She loves the way she is. Stop wasting your time; else you’ll listen to sassy reply, “Don’t waste my time. I’ve other things to work on.” Or is it because you are afraid to believe you are perfect, hence the contradictions? Or is it too scandalous for you, because it sounded bold to you? Or is it just for the heck of it?

There is clarity. There is peace when there is clarity. There is satisfaction, stability. There is this urge to decode to understand. There is life. And so much more... More I try to use words, more it diminishes the beauty and the fire of the feeling.

All this is complex?

Define complex/complexity.

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