Psyche

Funny thing about humans: they are distressed. Some trivial matter has upset them. Or something of importance has hurt them. The face is all small and low. Proudly they’ll say, “leave me alone, I’ll be all right” or maybe just speak something else and tell its nothing or maybe speak about it and still give away nothing. It is completely their wish, true.

But the funnier part was this: even when they say they want to be left alone, deep inside they want someone to fight against them and be there around them. Even if they say, “I’ll be fine” and try to shoo someone away, what they really want is to be asked what it is and give small help. Or at least make them smile and distract them. And let them know that they are cared for, or that you are there for them. That is all.

It is not just with them. I guess some part of me wants it too when I’m hurt. I’m a human too :)

I wouldn’t have realized this, unless this friend of mine hadn’t given herself away by that sms she sent at the end of the day. I wouldn’t have thought over this now, and realized I’m no different in this matter.

I’ve seen, and done it a few times myself too: we try and show we are different. We try and find someone different. Then I realized, why do I need to show I’m different? Or try and prove that? Everyone doesn’t matter to me (If they’re interested, they can find out themselves ;)). The ones who do, know who I am. Why take the pains. If I’m different, I have no reason to flaunt it. If I’m different, I’ll just enjoy it.

When will a person want to “show” he/she is different? Why will a person do something when someone finds it different? When that person wants to please people or a person. I had done that. And I realized it’s not worth! Done with pleasing people. And somehow these simple things are learnt from unrelated interactions. I’m not here to please.

So surprising how easily we let ourselves forget who we are in an attempt to please. There are surprisingly some beautiful relations existing where nothing is done to please. I’ve one. And it is amazing feeling for a change not trying to please or show. There are no expectations. There is no trying to be. Its just being yourself without any reason to please or do it for the heck of it. It’s like I’ve found myself all over again. And this is amazing. :)

P.S. If Mr. W is reading, this is to tell you, I’m not spending time on blog. I’ll get back to ‘real’ business. I’m just putting my thoughts in words. (reply I’m guessing will be, “ya sure” or “f*** u!” ;D)   

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