Ugly Truth

There used to be a time when people “acting” would irritate me. Not irritate me; it would make me feel sick from inside. It is like “being” genuine. Now I guess I'm learning to ignore it.

It oozes out in their tone. The honey, silky falsie concern for a friend. It is so obvious they are trying to be “in”. Trying to be “in” the society to be accepted, loved, cared and blah blahs. It is defined in the Maslow’s Hierarchy (society needs ... just learnt about it :) )

I still don’t understand this. How can others actually bear it? It gets on my nerves when I get to listen to that tone on me. (still ignoring :))

But society is kinda important. I’m contradicting myself here. It is because I’ve to live in it. I can’t be alone for long.

I don’t even know if the way I am being is right. I show concern when it is required and when it is genuine. I can’t pretend anymore. I tell what I feel. If sweet words when said again and again in loops are not understood, I go bit tough. Too many complains and never working on it gets on my nerves. I tell it. Sometimes it hurts them, but then they get the point. People, who are smart and understand me, take what I had to say and let go. Of hurt that is... Because it’s simple: it is finally understood. It is their wish to accept it or discard it. Things are said only when asked.

Maybe this thing in me is making me distance myself from honey toned people.

This stuff is boring, but it really makes me think a lot. Why be something else on face and something else behind? What is the point? If there is really some concern or really something to be told, why not tell it on face? It hurts yea, but then it hurts lesser than getting to know it from someone else. (Be it anything good or bad)

Why can’t the tone be normal and genuine? And tell them only when you mean it? That will be more convincing.

I don’t know. I guess I’m expecting an honest world ... Honesty out of everyone.

It’s not you, it’s me.

---..